I Wish There Was A Hallmark Card For This

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This was written for one of Hannah's close friends who feels that she is not good enough for her parents. Sad as heck, man.


I'm sorry I turned out like this
I guess that's just the way it is
I didn't know my mind would go
I didn't know that you wouldn't know
How to help me
That you'd deny it
That you couldn't understand
How the monsters under the bed were always real to me
And reality must've slipped
Out from my fingers somewhere along the line
I'm fine
I'm fine
I might mean it this time

I'm sorry I don't dress the right way
I'm sorry I don't know what to say
When I don't agree with what's being said
I can't keep opinions inside my head
You're embarrassed, admit it
You don't want me around
And when I'm nowhere to be found
You're always calling
Some days I can't make the voices go away
It's fine
Don't stay
We need it this way

Dear friends
When you get this note, just know
It wasn't you
It was never you
Dear mom and dad
I hope you do better with the next kid
I'm sure they'll be great
It's never too late

Dearly beloved
We've gathered to say goodbye
To a girl who was losing her mind
Dearly beloved
You promised you wouldn't cry
Or pretend like you ever gave a damn

Dear friends
When you get this note, just know
It wasn't you
It was never you


from What You Didn't Say, released February 2, 2014



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Hawk From a Handsaw Frederick, Maryland

Hawk From a Handsaw is made up of four kids from Maryland who sometimes play tunes. We want to make you think about death and get sad and stuff.

James Galdamez // Bass
Hannah Birdsall // Vocals
Alexa Johnson // Guitar
Cole Johnson // Drums
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